That is what motherhood does to you.
At least that is what it has done to me.
I have always prided myself on picking my battles.
Staying quiet when I knew nothing good would come from what I had to say.
Sometimes staying too quiet and letting things fester into something in my mind that was way beyond what it actually should be.
And now I find that I can't curb my tongue on most occasions.
Someone will say something and I will instantly decide whether they are right or wrong.
And most times I will speak before I think.
Not always endearing when I may hurt someones feelings.
I have become judgemental, snippy, and more impatient than I ever was.
These are not qualities that I wish to pass on to my children.
I have decided however that it mostly comes from a lack of sleep.
And partly from things that you don't get until you become a Mom.
Like someone letting your child play with something inappropriate and lashing out when maybe there was a better way to say it.
So tonight as I go to bed I am going to try to use my voice in a better way.
To go back the the basics that I know so well and have taught to so many others.
To listen with both ears.
To ask allot of questions so the other person can find the answer on their own without me snapping it at them.
To be a better teacher, friend, mentor and coach.
And to be the person that my boys will be proud to call Mom.
You're right. I need to do the same as well.
ReplyDelete(Although I will say, I think we both need more sleep before we judge ourselves too harshly. It's unreal what lack of sleep will do.)