I am Catholic.
I don't necessarily feel on any given day that I am a GOOD Catholic.
I struggle with allot of religious concepts.
I became really angry listening to one particular sermon the last time I went to Church.
It was about divorce.
I won't go into the details because the Priest redeemed himself at the end.
Church does that to me.
It makes me emotional.
I have no idea why but I could burst into tears during the Lords Prayer.
I struggled with the decision to get my children baptized.
I wanted to do it for the right reason.
I wanted them to have FAITH.
To BELIEVE in something bigger than all of us.
I wanted to be a good example to them.
I wanted them to go to a better school.
Yes I am aware that that is a crappy reason.
However in the public schools here they don't even sing the NATIONAL anthem anymore.
I became better.
I try to go to mass as much as I can.
And it makes me smile when M says we are going to see JESUS.
It also makes the other parishioners smile because he is not quiet about it.
I'm not perfect and don't pretend to be.
I haven't been to MASS in 5 weeks.
I won't go with my babies until they get their H1N1 shot.
I am just not going down that road.
Please don't question that logic.
So in an effort to teach my child about CHRISTMAS I wanted a Nativity set for under my tree.
I have no idea why I felt such a strong urge to do this.
In all of my grown up years I have never had one.
I guess it is just another little thing about kids that changes you.
But here is the thing.
I hate saying NO.
Along with DON'T TOUCH THAT!!!!!!!!!!
Kids are curious and they NEED to explore.
And I want him to touch,
And have faith.
Which is why I am so thankful to have found this:
On Christmas Eve I plan to have M put in Baby Jesus.
May your holidays be as blessed as ours.